Translate What You Are Avoiding in a Subject You Are Trying to Learn

There is a part of what you are learning that you keep going around. This translates what the avoidance is actually about: whether it is a real difficulty or an assumed one, what you cannot access because of the gap you have been skirting, and the smallest step that goes directly into the avoided thing rather than continuing around it. Avoidance compounds. The gap is always smaller than it feels.

Translate what I am avoiding in the learning described below.

For the subject and avoidance pattern:
1. What specifically I am avoiding: a concept, a format, a level of commitment, a type of practice, or the possibility of finding out I am not as capable as I hoped
2. Whether the avoidance is protecting me from something real (the topic is genuinely hard) or from something imagined (I have assumed it is harder than it is)
3. The cost of the avoidance: what I cannot access or understand because of the gap I am going around
4. The smallest step that would take me directly into the avoided thing, rather than around it

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[describe the subject, what you have been doing and not doing, and the part you keep postponing or skipping]
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